Karma
10 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
I read all the websites on grieving. I was prepared. I made them talk. I watched like a hawk for any behavioral changes. I was vigilant.
What i wasn’t prepared for, was my absolute amazement. They are GOOD. Grades are staying up, no major behavioral issues, my daughters journal isn’t full of angst. (Yea I read it, sue me.) Their private chats with their friends on Facebok and their texts (yes I monitor those silently too) are not cause for concern.
They have absolutely BLOSSOMED. my daughter is in karate now, and lives it. My son has recently picked up skateboarding, something he was never allowed to do before. (guess which parent thought it was “stupid”?) They are not uprooting their lives every other week. They are stable. They know they are loved, and they are – if not happy – at least content.
I am still holding my breath, and I am still watchful. We still have moments of tension, but what family doesn’t?
Lady and I are settling into what is our new normal routine, and we are good.
Am I saying I’m glad he’s gone? Of course not. Am I saying its good for them that he died? (if that’s what you got out of this, I really want to know what planet you are from). No. I’m not. It’s incredibly hard and painful.
I’m just saying, I see the silver lining. And I like it.
