5 things

Lady has been missing playtime, floor time, being able to discipline monkey when she needs it, and being able to release her dark side. I don’t know how to rectify any of this because our house is small and we barely get any time alone. I’m sure there could be some creative solutions to this because we are smart women, I just don’t know what they are right now. I will think about it and let you know, I promise I will work on it.I love you.

New, but not.

I don’t want to start over again. I do, but I don’t. We have started over so many times I just know it’s going to end up the same way. Of course life throws things at us and we have taken in someone else to live here and no we never get time alone so how are we supposed to do this? And I get all angsty and worried and stressed about it.

Then I realize that’s not on me. My job is to just listen, obey, and not try to control everything like I usually do. Slavery is one aspect of my life that I don’t have to stress about.

I don’t know how we are going to do this more than we are, but we can, it’s just going to take some work.

But on a serious note I can’t do everything all the time, sometimes when I’m having a REALLY bad day like yesterday it’s too much effort to even move off the couch much less fetch and carry for you. When I try to tell you that I’m absolutely at the end of any energy reserves I have, I get The Look. It isn’t often that it’s that bad, but can we work out some sort of signal or something where I can let you know that I just cannot at that moment?

I’m worried about my health and I’m really having a “feeling sorry for myself” couple of days. I will be OK, it will just take time.

I love you.